If you aren’t already aware that I am the biggest superhero nerd on the planet, than I’m not sure you know me at all. Okay maybe not the biggest, but definitely a huge fan. I got into superheroes back in 2012 when the first “Avengers” movie came to theaters. I know that plenty of Marvel and DC comic movies had already entered the scene way before then, but when that particular movie came out, I saw it six times just in the cinemas. (Don’t ask how many times I’ve seen it since then, I lose friends that way *laughs* but really.)
I began to binge-watch every superhero movie and television show that exists, and even went so far as to watch a three-hour documentary on superheroes and comic books dating from the 1940’s. Now, let it be known, I am a major girly-girl. I’m pretty sure that’s obvious. But place me in front of the TV while “X-Men” is playing, and you won’t hear from me for an extended period of time.
My sister was sweet enough to grab this adorable Marvel superhero face-mash muscle tank for me one day, and I cannot get enough of it. Squish together Spider-Man, Captain America (my favorite superhero), The Hulk, and Thor, and I am the happiest camper out there. I decided to pair it simply with subtly distressed light-wash jeans and some adorable black fringe booties. The top in and of itself is a statement, so I went with an easy, chunky gold chain necklace instead of something too bold.
Here’s a little bit about me that you may not know: I am my own superhero on most days. Why is that? I have something called gastroparesis. Big word for something completely invisible. You see, I cannot digest food properly. While it might take you an hour for your stomach to digest something easy like scrambled eggs, it takes my stomach twice that amount of time (and just think about what a steak might do). So unfortunately, I’m left in a great amount of pain the majority of the time, and sometimes terribly intense nausea takes over as well. This illness is “incurable,” so therefore I am unable to hold down any kind of employment due to the sporadic flare-ups that come along with all this. There are days where I’m perfectly fine, but the next moment I am curled into a ball incapable of functioning like a normal human for an unknown amount of time. If you follow me on Instagram, you’ll occasionally see me state that I’m having another “sick day” or something along those lines. I appreciate the “get well soon” comments, but I also feel like people should be aware of what is really going on behind the scenes. I do my best to remain positive, and I am running this blog to the best of my ability in between my difficult days. I am my own superhero, in that I have stayed strong through all of this and not given up. I try to keep a big smile on my face, because I never know what anyone else who sees me might be going through. Maybe I’m reaching someone right now who has an illness of some kind, and I hope that this post can comfort them and let them know that they are still capable of doing what they dream of. Life is going to throw you challenges, but you gotta “Hulk-smash” through them as best you can!
The last thing I want to say in this post is a giant thank you to everyone who has been supporting me through all this. You guys are my superheroes too. I wouldn’t know what to do without the help of my family and friends who bring me smoothies on my sick days (the only thing I can properly digest sometimes) and watch endless episodes of “Arrow” with me while I’m snuggled up in bed trying to resist the tears. Thank you to the amazing girls I’ve become bonded with through blogging and Instagram who encourage me daily to keep pushing through, and who compliment my smile when it really doesn’t want to be there. You all are wonderful. You are my superheroes. Who is yours? And who is your favorite fictional hero?